Nervous. Anxious. Pouty.
Tell me again why dating is fun?
I am meeting NOLA guy tonight in Jackson for dinner. Part of me is kind of dreading it. If I have a sitter an evening at home alone with a good book sounds like a slice of heaven. Of course, I always get that way when it's been a week and a half since dear son has been with his dad. And if I didn't have a date I wouldn't have a sitter so it's a moot point.
Another reason I'm almost dreading it is what if I like him AND he doesn't like me? Or vice versa? The evening is fraught, fraught, I tell you, with pitfalls.
Mainly, though, I'm dreading it because I am still half-thinking that we will have fun! And talk! And laugh! And that it will be great. Only I don't want any of those thoughts running around my head unattended. They only get my hopes up.
Or WHAT IF all of the above takes place, only he never calls again?
I wish I would just shut up. What if any of this happens? It's not the end of the world and everything happens for a reason, blah, blah, blah.
I've been busy at work so that's good then I'll remember tonight's date and get nervous all over again, something I'm sure to repeat umpteen times today.
Really, ya'll, I think this one tonight is the last online dating I'll do for a while.
Here's another thing. When I first began these online adventures waaaay back in March, when I went to meet a guy for the first time, I was excited and looking forward to it. There were certainly butterflies but I wasn't DREADING the meeting as I do as of late. Doesn't it seem like this would be awkward at first but the more I do it, the more comfortable I am? In reality, the longer I've done this the more I dread that Initial Meeting. I guess because I've done this enough to know just how truly awkward it can be. And how terrible it can be when for all intents and purposes you hit it off and there is no doubt he will call and you will see him again except that he doesn't call and you do not see him again.
I must stop. I'm depressing myself.
After my weekend, I have more to blog about that I'm eager to share. I'm working on it.
I am meeting NOLA guy tonight in Jackson for dinner. Part of me is kind of dreading it. If I have a sitter an evening at home alone with a good book sounds like a slice of heaven. Of course, I always get that way when it's been a week and a half since dear son has been with his dad. And if I didn't have a date I wouldn't have a sitter so it's a moot point.
Another reason I'm almost dreading it is what if I like him AND he doesn't like me? Or vice versa? The evening is fraught, fraught, I tell you, with pitfalls.
Mainly, though, I'm dreading it because I am still half-thinking that we will have fun! And talk! And laugh! And that it will be great. Only I don't want any of those thoughts running around my head unattended. They only get my hopes up.
Or WHAT IF all of the above takes place, only he never calls again?
I wish I would just shut up. What if any of this happens? It's not the end of the world and everything happens for a reason, blah, blah, blah.
I've been busy at work so that's good then I'll remember tonight's date and get nervous all over again, something I'm sure to repeat umpteen times today.
Really, ya'll, I think this one tonight is the last online dating I'll do for a while.
Here's another thing. When I first began these online adventures waaaay back in March, when I went to meet a guy for the first time, I was excited and looking forward to it. There were certainly butterflies but I wasn't DREADING the meeting as I do as of late. Doesn't it seem like this would be awkward at first but the more I do it, the more comfortable I am? In reality, the longer I've done this the more I dread that Initial Meeting. I guess because I've done this enough to know just how truly awkward it can be. And how terrible it can be when for all intents and purposes you hit it off and there is no doubt he will call and you will see him again except that he doesn't call and you do not see him again.
I must stop. I'm depressing myself.
After my weekend, I have more to blog about that I'm eager to share. I'm working on it.
posted by KDA at 9:33 AM
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